Not New Year reso-glue-tions.
Jan. 2nd, 2010 10:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
janewilliams20I'm still not setting up a load of goals I won't stick to just because we've reached a mark on an artificial measuring device (what next, controlling my life by when the milometer on the car rolls over another 1000 miles?), but this is the time when I need to switch from "securely employed by Unipath" to "not employed by anyone, go and find a job". So, a look at habits and some life-style readjustment is needed, including looking at why I have certain bad habits, and how I can tackle the cause.
Sleep. I don't get enough of it, and as a result, even the smallest jobs seem like a huge effort. So, all too often, the basic tidying doesn't get done, and then I "can't" do other little jobs because there's no space.
Why don't I get enough sleep? Because I sit at the PC avoiding jobs I should be doing on it by playing stupid games on Facebook. Why do I do that? I suspect it's the OCD kicking in again - compulsion to harvest those crops, kill that monster, make max profit in the virtual restaurant, breed animals in the Zoo. Now, OCD release is all very well, and I do need a harmless outlet for it, but I'd better recognise that that's what I'm doing. Pick one game that I can spend an hour or so on when I "need" to, drop the rest. Also, if I'm going to have a compulsion to do a ritual every day, let's make it something useful! There's a Wii Fit downstairs, complete with stupid games. Addiction to that rather than Farmville would be an improvement. If I could switch to compulsive tidying, that would be better yet, but let's not hope for miracles.
Then there's the avoidance of the jobs I should be doing... and that's probably fear of failure, triggered by redundancy and not getting past the first job interview I had. OK. Only one way to get past fear: do the thing you're scared of, and do it, and do it, until it's so routine you're no longer scared. I'm avoiding far too many things for fear of doing them "wrong", and that won't do.
So, what reso-glue-tions does that leave me with?
1) Drop all Facebook games but one (to be chosen, but Fairyland or Castle Age look promising).
2) Go to bed at a sensible time, whatever I'm trying to do can be done in half the time in the morning.
3) At least one tidying session per day.
4) Find the Wii Fit, make sure whatever annoying things that make it hard to use are sorted (like, when I start it up, it should just run, I am NOT going to poke through half a dozen unlabelled remote controls to find an unlabelled obscure setting to make it work. If this means the TV no longer defaults to beam CSI or Top Gear repeats into Dave's brain, tough.)
Sleep. I don't get enough of it, and as a result, even the smallest jobs seem like a huge effort. So, all too often, the basic tidying doesn't get done, and then I "can't" do other little jobs because there's no space.
Why don't I get enough sleep? Because I sit at the PC avoiding jobs I should be doing on it by playing stupid games on Facebook. Why do I do that? I suspect it's the OCD kicking in again - compulsion to harvest those crops, kill that monster, make max profit in the virtual restaurant, breed animals in the Zoo. Now, OCD release is all very well, and I do need a harmless outlet for it, but I'd better recognise that that's what I'm doing. Pick one game that I can spend an hour or so on when I "need" to, drop the rest. Also, if I'm going to have a compulsion to do a ritual every day, let's make it something useful! There's a Wii Fit downstairs, complete with stupid games. Addiction to that rather than Farmville would be an improvement. If I could switch to compulsive tidying, that would be better yet, but let's not hope for miracles.
Then there's the avoidance of the jobs I should be doing... and that's probably fear of failure, triggered by redundancy and not getting past the first job interview I had. OK. Only one way to get past fear: do the thing you're scared of, and do it, and do it, until it's so routine you're no longer scared. I'm avoiding far too many things for fear of doing them "wrong", and that won't do.
So, what reso-glue-tions does that leave me with?
1) Drop all Facebook games but one (to be chosen, but Fairyland or Castle Age look promising).
2) Go to bed at a sensible time, whatever I'm trying to do can be done in half the time in the morning.
3) At least one tidying session per day.
4) Find the Wii Fit, make sure whatever annoying things that make it hard to use are sorted (like, when I start it up, it should just run, I am NOT going to poke through half a dozen unlabelled remote controls to find an unlabelled obscure setting to make it work. If this means the TV no longer defaults to beam CSI or Top Gear repeats into Dave's brain, tough.)
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Date: 2010-01-02 07:25 pm (UTC)Good luck with the glues!
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