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State-of-the-Jane report
Feb. 3rd, 2013 12:39 pmIt's been a funny week. I can't seem to quite get rid of the cold I had - still waking up with clogged sinuses, still sneezing more than I'd prefer. Blood pressure is about 20 points higher than it should be, which might be due to the cold, but it shouldn't have that much effect, I'm not that ill.
Trying to get back into using the Wii Fit, but can't seem to find any motivation, or enjoy it when I do it.
Diet-wise, I'm back to point-counting again (mostly), but using the weeklies as well as the dailies, which I didn't before - without them, I start feeling deprived and hungry and miserable. I'm trying to get rid of the couple of kg I put on over the Belgium/Xmas/25th aniiversary break, and it's slow, and with huge unexplained wobbles. I'll eat too much one day with no effect, be good one day and put on a kg overnight, and last night, apparently lost over a kg in one go, except that I know I over-pointed the previous evening and didn't even do the sums to see how badly.
I seem to be getting stressed about little things too easily, with results I can feel on the blood-pressure. It gets to the point where I can feel my pulse going, and get slight chest pains, and that's not good, so I drop the thing that's causing the stress, whether it "needs" doing or not. There's an email awaiting answer that starts with a sarcastic comment and goes on to trigger some memories of idiocies a few years ago. It's not getting answered until I can read it without a rise in blood pressure and far too long spent brooding about problems that have been around for years, and won't change without certain people getting a clue-by-four.
Not sleeping properly. Get tired early, then have trouble getting to sleep, have bad dreams, wake up either in the middle of the night or just far too early, and can't get back to sleep again. That's probably a result of the cold and the nose-bleeds resulting from that and the blood pressure.
Creativity seems to be mostly on strike - I'll have vague plans to do something, but unless it's very very small and easy, not do it.
I could probably deal with half of this with a chunk of "stop whinging, get up and DO something", but the usual drive and motivation seems to have gone walk-about. Work's going fine, no trouble there, but as soon as I'm out of the office, it all switches off.
OK, whinge over. I'd better go and DO something, anything, even something as trivial as "tidy the kitchen, then make a coffee for Dave and a tea for me".
Edit 1: I think I've worked out at least one more step in the problem. If I want to do X, but to do X I have to do Y, and to do Y I have to do Z, I'll shut down and not do any of them, no matter how simple they may be. Unless I'm in work, in which case I write a project plan even if it ends up five levels deep, then get on and do it.
Edit 2: suggestion over on the Facebook echo that SAD may be something to do with it? Could be. I'll have to look that up. Also "biorhythms" - a little on the vague side, but research had better be done.
Trying to get back into using the Wii Fit, but can't seem to find any motivation, or enjoy it when I do it.
Diet-wise, I'm back to point-counting again (mostly), but using the weeklies as well as the dailies, which I didn't before - without them, I start feeling deprived and hungry and miserable. I'm trying to get rid of the couple of kg I put on over the Belgium/Xmas/25th aniiversary break, and it's slow, and with huge unexplained wobbles. I'll eat too much one day with no effect, be good one day and put on a kg overnight, and last night, apparently lost over a kg in one go, except that I know I over-pointed the previous evening and didn't even do the sums to see how badly.
I seem to be getting stressed about little things too easily, with results I can feel on the blood-pressure. It gets to the point where I can feel my pulse going, and get slight chest pains, and that's not good, so I drop the thing that's causing the stress, whether it "needs" doing or not. There's an email awaiting answer that starts with a sarcastic comment and goes on to trigger some memories of idiocies a few years ago. It's not getting answered until I can read it without a rise in blood pressure and far too long spent brooding about problems that have been around for years, and won't change without certain people getting a clue-by-four.
Not sleeping properly. Get tired early, then have trouble getting to sleep, have bad dreams, wake up either in the middle of the night or just far too early, and can't get back to sleep again. That's probably a result of the cold and the nose-bleeds resulting from that and the blood pressure.
Creativity seems to be mostly on strike - I'll have vague plans to do something, but unless it's very very small and easy, not do it.
I could probably deal with half of this with a chunk of "stop whinging, get up and DO something", but the usual drive and motivation seems to have gone walk-about. Work's going fine, no trouble there, but as soon as I'm out of the office, it all switches off.
OK, whinge over. I'd better go and DO something, anything, even something as trivial as "tidy the kitchen, then make a coffee for Dave and a tea for me".
Edit 1: I think I've worked out at least one more step in the problem. If I want to do X, but to do X I have to do Y, and to do Y I have to do Z, I'll shut down and not do any of them, no matter how simple they may be. Unless I'm in work, in which case I write a project plan even if it ends up five levels deep, then get on and do it.
Edit 2: suggestion over on the Facebook echo that SAD may be something to do with it? Could be. I'll have to look that up. Also "biorhythms" - a little on the vague side, but research had better be done.